User blog:Echostar/My Voice

So… the blowup after the “Our Voices” blog was much worse than I anticipated. And there are a few things that I know I personally need to take responsibility for.
 * The blog was my idea.
 * Part of my blog post was about my dissatisfaction with the Teresa situation.
 * Some things I said in my blog post were unproductive and frankly unnecessary.
 * The blog will not be as productive as we have hoped it would be.
 * I have pushed the boundaries of the rules to do what I wished with my characters.
 * I have spoken to many people who participated in the blog about the issues mentioned for months before this blog was posted.
 * I have been too afraid to come to Ck, Bond, Lyss, or Jisk about a few of the concerns mentioned in the blog.
 * My actions have personally affected, angered, and hurt some of the users on this wiki.
 * I have acted rashly by posting this blog so quickly, instead of processing my hurt and considering dealing with the whole situation in a different way.

With all these things in mind, I know I need to apologize. The thing that seems the most wrong to me? I asked for consideration for other users’ feelings, and when I got hurt, in some ways I threw that philosophy out the window.

I know I can never list everything and apologize for everything. I know that I will miss something that is a personal point of contention. I also know that this will not be enough to regain trust, or heal the wounds that have been inflicted. Nothing I do will ever be enough. But here are a few concrete things that I will do.
 * I am demoting myself to rollback, with the understanding that with these recent events, I may be demoted completely.
 * I will wait until November to discuss Teresa’s release, as was instilled by Jisk, and I will refrain from prompting the admins before that time.
 * I will do my best to help with the installation of any changes that will be instilled in the wiki.

Again, I know it’s not enough. But it’s a start. I know that I have been too idealistic and impractical, and I know that my words and actions have been hurtful. I am sorry.

Echo   star    ★   01:23, September 2, 2015 (UTC)