User blog:JayeMalik'/Faded Pictures On The Wall

as Mayor Her Royal Highness Regina Mills once said, I'm a fucking Queen

Hi, guys! So I'm sure all of you have already realized that the team is holding elections for at least 1 new user per role - including Bureaucrat. I'm pretty sure you guys have figured it out by now, but for those of you that haven't, I've decided to step down from my position as Bureaucrat and Head of Sorting & Stores.

Why did you do it?
There were a lot of factors I took into consideration before I made the ultimate decision to split from the team. Most of them were personal factors, and among them were:

Personal Factors

 * I've begun the understandably dreaded (and extremely arduous) college application process. I've got a lot of pressure right now to pick the right major, make sure I'm making a career out of something I enjoy, and selecting the university that's most appropriate for such a career.
 * My senior year has begun and I've already been massacred with tons of coursework. Among them are research papers, presentations, several literary exams, and so, so much more. At this rate, I'm not sure I'm going to survive the school year, let alone be able to successfully juggle the workload and be part of three different administration teams.
 * I've decided that, to make the most of my senior year, it was for the best I took 2 AP courses, advanced physics, honors mathematics, and a whole new language (French). Je ne recommande pas de prendre cette décision. I do not recommend making this decision. The work is insane and I just can't keep up with everything.
 * Being such a dedicated member of the administration team was consuming too much time. I need to get a life, make friends, get drunks, create some good memories. I can't do that while constantly thinking about my responsibilities here and the changes I need to make in order to successfully carry this wiki to the next level.

Wiki Factors

 * One of the biggest reasons why I made this decision is because I've honestly just been feeling a massive disconnection between myself and my characters. I felt like I hardly RPed them and that's just not how things should be. I miss roleplaying them and having fun, which is what the wiki is all about.
 * I got so lost in my responsibilities that I struggled to find the joy in roleplaying. If I did roleplay, I'd constantly worry I wasn't up to date with my responsibilities. It was a nightmare, really, like a constant pressure on my shoulders to execute plans left and right and make sure they were executed perfectly.
 * Lately, it's become increasingly hard for me to see eye to eye with many people. I've struggled to come to term with a lot of things here - no shade intended, truly - and it constantly feels like my methods are out of date beyond all else. Very retro, if you know what I mean. Focusing so much on running the wiki behind the scenes - and looking at everything from a practical point of view - has impeded me from honing in on my creativity and allowing others to properly express themselves as they should in such a magical world (IC and OOC).

Do you plan to ever return to the admin team?
If the time is right, I'll definitely be returning to the admin team. This is just... a little break. My time to get settle down and just focus on my characters and the potential they have. It's my opportunity to shine. To make characters worthwhile. To develop them and make sure they're the best damn thing I ever made. And with everything else going on, this is overall the best decision I could make for both the wiki and myself. But my work here is not done. I'll be back on the team, and I'm sure I'll come back better than ever before.

Are you leaving the wiki?
No, I'm not leaving the wiki. It's not my time yet. I've literally carried this wiki on my back at different periods of time, and though I hope there will be no need to do so in the future, I'll be here in the case I have to. This wiki has been my home for four years. You all know me better than I know myself. You're my family. Abandoning the lot of you just wouldn't feel right.

Will you help the team?
Honestly, I don't think the administration team needs my help. They're all pretty capable people. But if the time comes where they need my expertise on anything, then I'll be here without a shred of doubt.

Wait... but your characters...
Yes, I know, I held a couple positions of power. Or... two. Point is: I'm addressing them both below.

Evangeline
Evangeline will be dealt with in due time. The people who need to know what's happening with her already know what's happening with her. The gist of it is that she'll no longer be the Headmistress of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry come the end of this term. I assume leadership will fall to her deputy, but I believe a Bureaucrat will be able to tell you all with more certainty.

Dunstan
If you thought Dunstan was stepping down or going anywhere, you thought wrong. That's my adoptive baby. Nothing's changed on that front. Seeing as Department Heads are no longer for just admin team members - correct me if I'm wrong - and he wouldn't step down, he's staying right where is. Where he belongs. He's also active, so if anyone digs an RP, let me know.

This was extra as...
Yes, yes it was. Do I care? No, not really, I like the format. As always, babies, I love you and I'm here for you and just hit me up if you wanna RP or talk or summ else equally as crazy.