User blog:Fun3n/ I was Dumb

What an incredible beginning, right? Well, I can honestly say I was the dumbest noob EVER! I'm still a noob in some aspects. How pathetic is that? I've been here since December 2011.

Look, here are some things I feel comfortable in sharing with my DARP family. I have issues. I have thought about killing myself. Yes, that is stupid. I get that. It wasn't really about cutting myself or taking too many pills because I don't take pills and I have no blades (or reason) to cut.

I have gone through violent mood swings. I have problems and I accept that. How many saw this coming? I have been abused both mentally, but also verbally and slightly physically as well. Is that nice to know?

I would like to call myself a teller of truth. It sounds nice in my head. Do I lie to you guys? I can say no. I have not lied to you guys, at least not in my memory.

I am really trying to not cry. I hate myself, that's true. But, I'm getting help. It's because of you guys. You connect me to real life. I love you all.

I am not leaving. Not now, not ever. I can't bring myself to leave. I can promise that much.

Please don't ever forget that a smiling girl might be hurting.

I trusted too much and it dragged me down. I'll explain everything in my next blog posts.

This is Fun (You can call me Grace, my nickname), signing off.

Sincerely,

Grace Nevermore (a nickname)