User blog:Ckohrs0221/Stepping Down from Admin Team

When I took my RB position a little over a month ago, I thought I had been selected to help get the AI team back into working order, given my experience running that department for quite some time as a Crat.

When I stepped up and took the administrator position a few weeks ago, I thought I took it to help run an expansion that was in planning (the Spattergroit expansion) because Elentari would be taking over OOC Head, and needed help implementing what had been planned.

As I said when I ran for admin, I'm a very busy person-- more so now that I'm working on a few theatrical productions in my spare time. That said, having successful expansions on the wiki mattered to me enough that I was willing to make them a priority, because I wanted them to be a success, and in part because I missed the fun of helping with them.

I thought that I would have been respected for my knowledge, and proven track record. I thought I would be treated like an adult, when I was treating my fellow admin team members with respect, and like adults.

Sadly... that has not been the case. There was some B-crat miscommunication, and I took the resulting heat of what happened. Two other members involved were given private conversations; I was publicly lashed out against. I tried to apologize, and to explain my reasons to Carn and was told by him that "in [his] mind it didn't matter." Someone I thought would come to my defense instead jumping to Carn's side of things, and told me that if I wanted to "tuck tail and run then be [her] guest."

I don't see it as tucking tail; I see it as blatant disrespect. I do not have a lot of spare time in my life; I definitely do not have the time to help run something when I am going to be treated poorly. That's not fun for me.

I am stepping away from administration team. I don't know what will happen with the expansion-- interested parties can speak to Carn, who I hope will continue running it, or Jaye or Elentari. And I am seriously questioning whether or not I want to stay on the wiki at all.