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If What We Had Was Real, How Could You Be Fine?


  Amnesia - 5SOS 

''I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you? When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you? '''Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine? 'Cause I'm not fine at all  I remember the day you told me you were leaving I remember the make-up running down your face And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them Like every single wish we ever made I wish that I could wake up with amnesia And forget about the stupid little things Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you And the memories I never can escape  'Cause I'm not fine at all   The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around  It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long  It's like we never happened, was it just a lie? If what we had was real, how could you be fine? 'Cause I'm not fine at all I remember the day you told me you were leaving I remember the make-up running down your face And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them Like every single wish we ever made I wish that I could wake up with amnesia And forget about the stupid little things Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you And the memories I never can escape  If today I woke up with you right beside me Like all of this was just some twisted dream I'd hold you closer than I ever did before And you'd never slip away And you'd never hear me say  I remember the day you told me you were leaving I remember the make-up running down your face And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them Like every single wish we ever made I wish that I could wake up with amnesia And forget about the stupid little things Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you And the memories I never can escape  'Cause I'm not fine at all No, I'm really not fine at all Tell me this is just a dream 'Cause I'm really not fine at all'

this reminded me too much of them and you know exactly who i'm talking about. xD

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an angsty collection of burnt-to-ashes scribbles of a certain asian girl.


 * -|1=

Never knew it was possible to be a tightrope walker on the boundary of numbness and excruciating mental agony.


 * -|2=

I'm fine. Don't worry about me, Rina!


 * -|3=

Valentin, will you please get off my case?! Just...leave me alone already.


 * -|4=

If you honestly think I'm crying over just a boy, you're the insane one. There's so much you don't know about me.


 * -|5=

Cecilie, forgive me for lying to you like this.


 * -|6=

I have to do something, dammit, Reynie! I don't care if this kills me!


 * -|7=

The boathouse is a nice place at night to get paper cuts.


 * -|8=

It's not you. It's not anyone. It's my fault, okay? I'm sorry. God, I'm so sorry.


 * -|9=

Why are you mad at me, Dad? Where did I go wrong? Listen. Please. Please listen to me.


 * -|10=

You brought this on us, Mum. It's not your fault though. I hate me too.


 * -|11=

Be happy, Tori. Be happy. I hope you're happy. Sincerely happy. I didn't deserve you.


 * -|12=

Realized I was insignificant that day.


 * -|13=

I can't stop.


 * -|14=

Almost got caught.


 * -|15=

Does it really matter if I'm injured?


 * -|16=

I'm too aware of my own selfishness to say that I love all of you.


 * -|17=



'''they were too late. they were always too late.'''

Character Management


1= active

quiescent

requisite

filemot

daedality

α

 * Rheine (INFP)
 * Katherine (INTP)
 * Myosotis (ESFP)
 * Joan (INTJ)
 * Zephaniah (ISFJ) (exotic)
 * Sabina (ISFJ)
 * Arella (ISFP) (exotic)

β

 * Elodie (INTP) (exotic)
 * Valentin (ISTJ) (exotic)
 * Psyche (ISTJ)
 * Aspirin (INFJ) (exotic)
 * Kresselia (ISTP)

γ

 * Kīlauea (ISFP)
 * Zoraida (ENTJ)
 * Tamara (ESTP)
 * Asia (INTJ)

δ

 * R.P. (INFP)
 * Nausikaa (ENTP/ESTP) (exotic)
 * Odette (INTJ)
 * America (INTP)
 * Zeena (ESxx)

''I've roleplayed 11 of all 16 MBTI personalities. Woah.''

Note to self: Little dilemma with 2401, 180 to 275 degrees, but manageable.


 * -|2=
 * Once Nausikaa graduates, she pulls a Rebecca and vanishes without a trace. It hurts her to not even tell Tristan, her second best friend, but she knows it's necessary. She's been a burden from the start — not being there when Tristan lost Becca, not being there when Finlay needed support, not being there for Char, not being there for Adrian, not being there for Calla, and... not being there for any of her friends. She doesn't want to cause them any more pain by telling them that she has an appointment with a black hooded angel and there's no canceling it. When she came to this decision, she thought she should've been guilty but wasn't. She's done this before, and nobody really cared... (I see your Si function, Sikaa.)
 * The first time Tamara couldn't get out of bed, she absolutely freaked. OH MY GOD SHE'S AN INVALID OH NO DID THE STUNT AT THE ROLLER COASTER BREAK HER LEGS WHY WERE THEY NUMB SVETA IS GONNA BE SO PISSED kind of freaking out. When she scheduled an appointment with a random doctor under a fake identity, it was almost easy to make up an excuse on her hours of disappearance to her sisters. She grew more reckless, climbing the Bell Towers and skipping even more classes and pranking even more people and doing mischief 1000x more than her usual. Nobody needs to know her health is deteriorating, not even her dad.

(note to self: if you can set up a pretty page and write down tons of paragraphs about your character, then you can take a few minutes researching ethnicity. don't be a lazy sard.)
 * -|3=

Humanization Commence


Toothflossing Stringmints=


 * If Asia smiles at you, it's either she: a. wants something that you'd never realize she'd want, b. is aiming to literally kill you indirectly, or c. genuinely likes you as a human being (and this is uber rare.)
 * Asia herself doesn't know her own birthday. It was the only piece of info she didn't bother looking up when she finally accessed her real records, so she makes up for it by celebrating on a different month and day every year. It's childish, and she knows that, but it's the only habit she'll indulge in. Everything else is work, work, work.
 * The best way to get into a polite conversation with Kress is to not talk at all. Instead, ask for help in fixing something and watch quietly as she does it in a jiffy. She'll initiate conversation eventually.
 * Initiating conversation is alien to Elodie. Waiting for her to make a move will just end in a catastrophic awkward silence.
 * Tamara is one hell of a flirt. She's the type to lean in close to boys' faces (and sometimes girls) for a few minutes or more (depending on how long it takes to make someone redden) then pull back the moment they blush and continue on casually talking as if nothing happened. The actual truth is she just wants someone to pull her back in for a kiss. She hasn't realized this yet.
 * Valentin is traditional to the point it is dryly funny. He's good at adapting to new situations even though he doesn't quite acknowledge it, and it comes in handy every once in a while. (aka? he'll probably give infp nonjudgmental-ness a run for its money if he wants.)
 * While she's more than aware of her orientations by now, Sabina will rarely flirt with a female before they start. She knows how it is to be forced in incredibly awkward flirting situations and doesn't want to be the subject of the oh so infamous awkward pause and "uh. i don't swing that way."
 * Aspirin really loves hugs and cuddling, as long as it's with someone she's close to. Her reason for constantly tackle-hugging people is "I fall over all the time, so it's time for someone else to do it."


 * Elodie is gENIUS AT COOKING. You wouldn't expect it. It's a bit of a hobby she picked up when she was ten. She's also more or less in the middle of compiling her own freaking cookbook.
 * Shockingly, Aspirin isn't too bad of a cook. Just don't make her bake anything without Tilly's help - it's sure to end up a disaster. ALSO SHE MAKES THE BEST PROTEIN SHAKES EVER. SO LIKE IF YOU EVER WANT TO GO ON THOSE DIETS ASPIRIN IS SERIOUSLY YOUR GIRL.
 * Asia's cooking skills are, unfortunately, not up there with her martial arts. They're pretty sparse, but cut her some slack. It's not like you can stop to pick up cookbooks when you're about to die.
 * Being on the run from social services is bound to force some skills into you. Going on road trips and hunting also does that. Nausikaa might not be very good with the modern kitchen utilities, but send her to the forest and the next morning you're sure to have a really natural meal.
 * You've gotta admit Tam's not half bad. Sweets may be her specialty, but she can make a few other whopping dishes.


 * -|Pixie Puffs=


 * -|Skeletal Sweets=

Nicknames
 * Nausikaa Argyris: Pinecone Face, Rejection Queen, Short Circuit, Zappy Girl, Quidditch Grounder
 * Aspirin Beilschmidt: Nappy, Aspirin Tablet, H2O, SQ, Aspen, Helle of a Girl, Techie Princess
 * Tilly: "You're the cookies to my cache."
 * GC2/Jesse: "You're my semicolon. (always present in everything I do)"
 * AA: "You're my superclass. (you define what I can do)"
 * EQ: "You're my increment operator. (you make my value increase)"
 * GC1/Jessie: "You're my initializer. (without you, my life would point to nothing (null)."
 * Zel: "You're my compiler. (my life wouldn't start without you)"
 * Elmo: "You're my loop condition. (I keep coming back to you)"
 * AW: "You're my parameter. (because I will always need you)"

"I love you. But I don't want to love you. I want to be happy."




Smile... for me... (Zeph)=

The tangy, coppery smell of blood clogged up the cabin in the woods. Zephaniah Mitchell-Anderson would've panicked by this point under normal circumstances, but these were far from ordinary. A tingle gently coursed through her veins; it was burning hot and painful, yet numbing relief at the same time.

Zeph had been poisoned.

Blood that trickled out of the wide, deep gashes on her legs pooled around her aching, mostly immobile body. Her vision was dotted with bright lights and dark spots at war. She felt a presence - Jenelle? - nearby. Were they trying to say something? They were moving slightly. Concern for her sister flooded her. Jenelle... She tried to speak and found that she could not; her vocal chords had been rendered useless.

Seeing her sister like this, even as a blurry shaking form, made Zeph want to scream. ''No, no, Jenelle... please, it's not.. it's not your fault...''

Tears ran down her cheeks unchecked, mingling with the blood on the floor. Somewhere in the distance, she heard the howl of a wolf. It should've struck fear into her heart and paralyzed her more than she already was. It didn't. All Zeph could think about was her sister, her sister who she could barely see.

''Jenelle, it's not your fault... it's not your fault... please, please, please...''

Was this what dying felt like? Your life force ebbing out of your body as your life really did flash as a kaleidoscopic mess in front of your eyes? This out-of-body feeling? This.. ripping in the chest that distinctly sounded like cracking? Maybe that was her heart breaking, because she didn't want anyone to see her like this. Alone and helpless and dying and being so freaking useless in helping her sister who was dying on the inside.

''I love you. I love all of you. Please forgive me.''

Before the verdict of her last breath was passed, Zephaniah Mitchell-Anderson fought ff the tingling and excruciating pain that was separating her soul from her body. She pulled herself to her sister, muscles screaming and heart slowing. Precious seconds slipped from the brunette's grasp and were whisked down the drain.

"Hey," Zeph croaked out, forcing the best smile she could. "Smile... for me..."

Her pupils dilated and one last gurgle was choked out of her throat.

Smile for me.


 * -|(Myo)=


 * -|(Psyche)=

Malena Synnöve Siemens-Zedlitz

 * Malena Synnöve Siemens-Zedlitz
 * Full name is actually Malena Synnöve Regula Kasimira Åsa Siemens-Zedlitz because freaking nobility crapola.
 * Don't worry, she thinks it's overkill too. She says she could've lived with three names, but FIVE?! When her grandparents passed away, she seized her chance to disown two of her names to at least seem normal. Now she's just Malena Synnöve Kasimira, which in her honest opinion, is infinitely better.
 * The midwife/nurse who helped deliver her called her "Zeena" and it stuck. Her mother, in her last few moments, asked her dad to name her that but her grandparents refused and stuck the stupid five names on her.
 * A lot of people call her Zeena. Only her grandparents thought it was a dumb nickname and called her by her full name. She goes by Zeena permanently now because ha, take that Grandmere.
 * Immediate family call her Malena, cousins call her Synn (bc she's pure sin to them k), second cousins call her Kassie, friends call her Malena or derivations of it, and close friends call her whatever they like.
 * She introduces herself either as Malena or Zeena or both.
 * I'm still looking for a surname. She signs her name with "Zeena Zedlitz," much to the chagrin of her now-ex-tutors.
 * Her mum was a relative of the Schmidts so she's distantly related.


 * ❄ - snowflake because spoilers
 * ✾ - six petals: "Six petal flower, symbol of love. Aphrodite´s Flower representing the Goddess and Divine sexual energy. The number six is associated with femininity and considered a perfect and Divine number."


 * Chloë Grace Moretz
 * Swiss-German, etc. I'm trying to be a good RPer and stick to ethnicity from now on. Maybe related to the scHMIDTS SCREAMS. Definitely related to the Schmidts.
 * Half-sister to Mel's Japanese character.
 * It was mandatory to wear posh clothes at her house when her grandparents were still alive, but now she's sort of grown on them. That doesn't mean she doesn't love the freedom of wearing anything she likes now though.
 * Summery or autumny colors, but she doesn't mind a bit of flamboyance every now and then; prefers simple jewelry.
 * Third cousin to the Schmidts.


 * Her dad met the love of his life who had run away from her Japanese family. She left him and ran because of a misunderstanding while pregnant with her older half-sister. When her dad's parents found out, they were enraged and forced him into an arranged pureblood marriage. He was unrepentant and adamantly tried to escape a few times, so his equally devious fiancée slipped him love potions. That put an end to his thoughts of running away, and they got married.
 * Malena was born at the cost of her mother's life. The love potions wore off her dad soon after. Realizing what he had done, he distanced himself from his "daughter." She's a constant reminder that he wasn't strong enough to find his love and got ensnared in his parents' trap.
 * Raised in a blood supremacist environment.
 * She wasn't stupid about it; her older cousins made sure of it so she's aware that their pureblood family is pretty old-fashioned.
 * things got a lot better when her grandparents died
 * sometimes she wishes her dad was around more. he's always been distant, but she isn't all too bothered by it. she'll survive.
 * "there was nobody to tell me not to touch fire, not to go into the deeper parts of the water, not to jump out of the window three stories high, not to do somersaults on the stairs, not to play with the poker in the fireplace, not to touch anything electric when my hands are wet, not to talk to strangers, and not to go outside without letting anyone know."
 * several minutes into planning and she's already angstified well sard
 * had loads of lessons while her grandparents were still alive (she hated the arrangement but at the same time was cool with it); can play the didgeridoo, the French horn, the hardingfele, the holophonor, the nyckelharpa, and the viola ("not the violin thanks").
 * taught herself how to swim and cook
 * almost drowned when she first learned how
 * completely destroyed half of their kitchen the first time cooking
 * can speak German (fluent), Swiss-German (basic), and English (fluent)
 * can read German and English fluently; Swiss-German semi-fluently
 * the first time she ever truly got into a huge argument with her grandparents was during the acceptance letters at age 11; they wanted her to go to Durmstrang but she was fed up with following every single command from them
 * they compromised on Beauxbatons. after they died, Zeena immediately snagged a transfer to Hogwarts. she hears she has distant relatives there (burned off the family tree by you know who) and she's ECSTATIC about meeting them.
 * first act of magic? making hER FAVORITE TREE FLY (she really didn't want it to be fixed so her grandparents relented for once)
 * she loves going there every night. it's her emotional spot.
 * very protective of it. when her cousins visited one time, one of them tried to follow her up. the next moment they were on tHE ROOF.
 * her home is ancient. it's Unplottable and has loads of other fancy magic defenses. it's located somewhere in Germany. her family also owns this majestic vacation house in Switzerland with the same fortifications. they go there for two weeks every summer (it used to be four but when she started attending school it was reduced); though she loves it there, she misses her floating tree so it's bittersweet.
 * she always tried her best best best to get along with her friends' siblings because she always wanted one
 * gets to speak with her dad once a month (twice if it's her birth month.) supposedly he has "very little time and lots of work to do" but she knows it's bull. she always prepares a list of things to talk about beforehand and treasures those few bonding moments with him.
 * she told her dad after her sixth birthday that she wanted questions (amount being her current age) answered honestly every year from him rather than those luxurious presents he sent that she couldn't truly appreciate. he relented. her birthday's one of the highlights of her life not because of the lavish parties and the pretty dresses, but because of those questions being answered.
 * sometimes she cheats with the loopholes on the questions so they end up talking for hours. it's not uncommon if her dad needs to get back to work because of something urgent in the middle of their conversation.
 * she never runs out of questions to ask.
 * when she found out about her half-sister sHE WAS OVERJOYED.
 * i'm guessing half-sister might be pretty reclusive but she understands. one day she lets her sis be the first other person to climb her floating tree and maybe they start bonding from there.
 * the shit with their uncle happened and that caused another rift between her and her dad. she knows it's easier for her dad to assume she's the one who isn't his because Yuki is his favorite
 * shE HAS A PET PENGUIN B Y E
 * your storyline is a mess and i am loving it with a touch of guilt. sorry not sorry this is what happens if you leave an ENFP, two INFPs, and one INTP to brainstorm together.


 * adventurous, hands-on person, loves trying new things
 * don't mistake her low attention span for stupidity. she's sharper than most expect.
 * she isn't used to slang or puns. they result in her having this cute adorable confused expression on her face
 * pineapple streusel pie is her favorite dessert.
 * BASEBALL FAN who gives a sard if her grandparents hated Muggles whatever. favorite player? I dunno yet. xD
 * she likes poetry BUT SHE'S TERRIBLE AT WRITING IT LIKE NO
 * she's a fantastic cook and swimmer despite the mishaps
 * uses "yikes" a lot, especially after the passing of grandparents
 * still getting used to saying "hi, hello" because ew at old-fashioned upbringing. she's more accustomed to curtsying and it's a hard habit to break
 * her profanity is pretty mild; she does it under her breath or mentally
 * it's hard to realize she's agitated or upset or angry or generally feeling anything besides happiness; she's been trained to be over the top polite and civil; remarkably levelheaded
 * loves her freedom, but she's okay with some routine
 * secret: she's indirectly the cause of her grandpa's death and her grandma died shortly after (supposedly out of grief)
 * astronomy and herbology tie for her favorite subject. potions and charms tie for second. she hates written assignments, so history of magic, ancient runes, arithmancy, and etcetera are a big NO-NO. the only reason she can stand classrooms is because of tough childhood training (grandparents please).
 * ESFP af


 * char generator:
 * Courteous: Generally
 * Risk-Taking: Often
 * Ambitious: Sometimes
 * Curious: Often
 * Self-Controlled: Occasionally
 * Nurturing: Sometimes
 * Trusting: Occasionally
 * Honest: Sometimes
 * Loyal: Typically
 * Affectionate: Often
 * Romantic: Usually
 * Flirty: Sometimes
 * Sympathetic: Generally
 * Altruistic: Sometimes
 * Optimistic: Typically
 * Observant: Often
 * Logical: Generally
 * Social: Somewhat outgoing
 * Emotions: Fairly controlled

X.Y.Z. Wilde
~ the basics ~
 * X.Y.Z. Wilde
 * ________ ___________ _____________ Siemens
 * Half earth nymph.
 * Fifth year
 * I'm thinking either Hufflepuff or Slytherin.
 * Everyone refers to her as either "X" or "Wyzee." Sometimes "XYZ." They're her standard nicknames. People tend to use her actual names in serious situations; you're sure to grab her attention if you use them.
 * earth's hiemal alchemyst

~ the appearance ~
 * Teresa Oman
 * Undeniably Australian
 * She used to have one of those ridiculously thick accents, but tHANK MERLIN, it has mostly faded.
 * Looks nothing like her mortal parent.
 * Her light blue eyes are the first thing people notice. They're mesmerizing, to say the least. Reminds you of the quietness of an isolated, sparkling lake.
 * Freckled nose, waist-length hair, ever parted lips - it's not hard to believe that she is half not human.
 * It's not uncommon for people to guess "water nymph?" She's uncharacteristically calm and serene. Just wait for her stubbornness to kick in then all the puzzle pieces will fit.

~ the history ~
 * Mortal parent was forced to give her up lest they be disowned.
 * Third cousin to Malena because I can. Malena's grandmother (and her grandmother) plotted to kill her on multiple occasions. Yeah. That's where the bitterness is supposed to come from.
 * Her parent was Imperiused to try and kill her. The last thing they did was to fight against the curse and kill themselves (along with a few others) to save X. Even though they picked the family over X, they still loved her... She's their daughter, for sard's sake. (All following attempts are the Imperius Curse or kill-for-hires.)
 * Attempt #2: Her first ever foster parent poisoned her. She almost didn't make it. Parent got a jail sentence after pleading insanity or something.
 * Attempt #3: Guy from the ice cream shop tried to kill her via medicinal overdose. She lived, but he died. In his Imperiused state, he was forced to walk in front of an incoming train.
 * Attempt #4: Disguised Mandrake given by a friend almost killed her.
 * Attempt #5: Nanny tried to electrocute her.
 * Attempt #6: School janitor knocked her out and tried to bury her alive.
 * Attempt #7 never happened, because by then her grandparents had died.
 * Got tossed around in foster care. Learned something different from every guardian.
 * The only possession she has from her biological family is a pocketwatch. It's a heirloom that isn't even supposed to be with her; it's one of her mortal parent's last acts of rebellion.
 * Her last foster guardians knew the Wildes. They managed to figure out X's nymph heritage by following the bread crumbs. Knowing she was bound to be persecuted, they called up the unconventional family.
 * The day was going horrible: (one of the bullies had locked her in the chimney), she missed breakfast, another bully wrecked her mini garden, and another kid unintentionally ripped her favorite shirt. Now she thinks it was so worth it — she was adopted that day and whizzed off to England, away from all of it. She was thirteen.
 * She was homeschooled for her fourth year so she could get up to speed and become acquainted with her new siblings and the surroundings. Australia doesn't have a wizarding school.
 * There turned out to be a boggart in one of the ancient cupboards in the house. She lay on the floor crying for who knows how many hours. Fae and Rae were the ones who found her.
 * At first she was really wary around Missi because of her emotional powers, but that got smoothed over fast and now they're all good.
 * To be fair, it was difficult adjusting to all of her new siblings.
 * Fae kinda scared her because he reminded her of the bullies back in Australia. That fear was vanquished easily.
 * Rae also made her sort of paranoid because of the 'big sister' vibe that she had never experienced before, but that also was quelled. She's intensely glad Rae respects her personal space, even if she might not show it.
 * She was most comfortable with Kaela. Mainly because both are perfectly okay being in the same room without exchanging a word and without it being awkward.
 * Uh, Nathan? He was the first person in the family to make her smile. It was a "wait what you look different wai- OH YOU'RE SMILING YOU LOOK SO DIFFERENT" moment.
 * Marie stands out from their odd little family — she's not a half breed, much like their parents. XYZ intended to avoid her like the plague at first, but somehow the tension was diffused. She's met orphans like her before, and it clicked in her head that there was no point in delaying the inevitable. It scares her a bit that Marie tried to kill herself. Truth be told, X feels that Marie is like the female!vampire!Faelan. Also she's somewhat curious... do vampires have monthly pains???

~ the quirks, interests, and hobbies ~
 * Ice skating, hockey....any sports that involve ice or snow? She. Will. Own. You.
 * Locks. Bank vaults. There's only a few attributes she's inherited from her biological parents, and even fewer that she makes use of. She's a natural escape artist and lock-picker. (Don't believe that crap they show in the movies. Locks are not easy to pick, and are still not even after "getting the hang of it." Complete bull, especially in the modern world.)
 * An irritatingly accurate sense of direction with an equally accurate deducting skill. Throw her into the woods and she'll come back without batting an eye.
 * Don't ask how, but she knows how to distinguish fake jewels from the real deals. One of her guardians trained her in the art of jewel fraud.
 * Yes, she does ballet. Whatever.
 * Alpacas are life.
 * Basically a jill of all trades.
 * “A jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one.”
 * “the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb.”
 * Yo-yos are cool.
 * The only types of jewelry she wears are rings and earrings. Anything else is too flashy for her.
 * She ALWAYS has an umbrella on her person.

~ the personality ~
 * You'd think she'd be your classic bitter orphan (and she has every right to be one), but she's not. She's not scared of what people think of her, and no, her indifference isn't a facade.
 * Victim of bullying. That one time she tried to fight back, it didn't end well. She's given up on helping herself, but that doesn't mean she makes it easy for the jacka**es.
 * One hell of a tough cookie. If you want her to do something, you're gonna have to MAKE her.
 * Thrives on small talk. She learned a long, long time ago that the less people know about you, the less they'll hurt you.
 * Whenever someone questions her initials, she's like "it was a really unfortunate coincidence."
 * She only ever smiles around her adoptive siblings.
 * She does smile around strangers, but it's bland and you can't help but wonder if she's having a bad time.
 * Not distant. Quiet, but not distant. She won't probe you if you don't probe her.
 * It's alarming to acknowledge the fact that her reactions are the opposite of intense. They're there, but they seem so bland that it feels like she's holding something back. She's the perfect person to go to when you need to vent and not want any opinions or suggestions.
 * It's what got her bullied so much — "lol stop acting like you don't care yOU DO" — people wanted intense reactions from her.
 * "pretty but not startling so, smiley, eager-eyed. The only otherworldly thing about her is a quick-to-appear impish grin. She laughs as she talks and has a wolfish appetite."
 * From an article about Oman. This is X with her siblings.
 * "goofy but not self-consciously quirky; cheerful but not ditsy; comic but sarcasm-free"
 * Again with the siblings.
 * Sarcasm isn't really her thing. That's the others' forte. You'll know something's wrong when she's being sarcastic.
 * She's got blood on her ledger and she'd like to wipe it off, but she doesn't know how.
 * Favoritism is a big no-no to her, so she doesn't have a favorite sibling.
 * Whenever there are sibling fights, she's 200% terrified of the end result.
 * Her favorite places are: Hyde Park (skating rink), Old Forest, Greenhouse and Gardens, The Dance Hall, and Disused Bathroom.

The Silent Scream


aka the list of charries who have parents and peers problems

[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIlghWDd7RU ''Just let me be who I am. It's what you really need to understand. And I hope so hard for the pain to go away.''

''Can't you see how I cry for help? 'Cause you should love me just for being myself.''

I'll drown in an ocean of pain and emotion, if you don't save me right away. ]

Malena

''I'm caught up in your expectations. You try to make me live your dream. But I'm causing you so much frustration and you only want the best for me.''

Rawiya

Wanna put me in a box of glitter, but I'm just trying to get right out.

America

And now you're feeling so so bitter, because I've let you down.

Kate

''You're wanting me to show more interest, to always keep a big bright smile. Be that pinky little perfect princess, but I'm not that type of child.''

Elodie

''And the storm is rising inside of me. Dontcha feel that our worlds collide? It's getting harder to breathe. It hurts deep inside.''

Kress

''Tell me why you're putting pressure on me. And every day you cause me harm. That's the reason why I feel so lonely. Even though you hold me in your arms.''