User blog:NotAlwaysPerfect/What's up, buttercup?

Never thought I would be writing this, but something happened a few nights ago that reminded me that this place exists and it was difficult for me to ignore that. I was talking to one of my guy friends and I found out he really likes Harry Potter. It was shocking. He plays football and acts all macho. Harry Potter just never seemed like his thing. Anyways, it gave me war flashbacks and it brought me back here. It hurt me a little bit to see that I haven't been online since May 2018. I don't know what turned me away or at least what kept me from making a post about it, but it has certainly been a while. I'm a senior in high school now and my graduation is exactly 200 days away. I'm working as a cashier for a store for outdoor recreation goods on weekends. Within the next month, I should be getting an admission decision from my dream school, a private university in California. A lot of stuff has been going on lately. Point being - I have been really preoccupied, so maybe this website hasn't been at the forefront of my brain, but I have missed it at times. Admittedly, there are some not-so-good memories attached to this website. I was on here at a time in my life that was really toxic. I was incredibly mentally unstable and depressed and I was not ready for the online environment. That said, the good memories and characters and friendships that were developed out of this site are what have stuck with me and are what drove me to write this today. With that all said (for seemingly no reason except I'm a tad bit emotional), I don't know where to begin. I don't know if I can come back to this and I don't want to make commitments. I don't know where to start or what to do even if I do. Regardless, I hope everyone has been well and I would love to catch up with some of you.