She'd frown slightly and begin tentatively looking around the house. She'd been gearing up for this conversation/fight all day and was really apprehensive. As she searched the house fear began to grip her heart...this was too much like last time when Eric had just...disappeared.
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 16:50, July 31, 2019 (UTC)
It was another ten minutes later when Eric came in, with a duffel bag of his own in hand. He walked in and clearly looked surprised to see Melinda.
She'd slowly pull away but keep her arms around him loosely. She'd nod down at the bag. "Going somewhere?"
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 17:00, July 31, 2019 (UTC)~
"When you didn't come back the first night, I stayed, thinking you'd be back in the morning. When you didn't, I figured you didn't want to come back to me. So a buddy from work said I could stay with him. So I've been there on his couch. I needed some new clothes."
Her tone would become more resigned. "I don't just expect everything to be just fine Eric. I realize we need to work through what happened and what we said and I didn't walk out without a word...I told you I thought we both needed a little space and time to cool off and I didn't go to my family because this isn't their business and they have no reason to know."
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 17:21, July 31, 2019 (UTC)
"If you'd been gone another day, I would've reported you missing, Melinda," he said wearily, rubbing his face.
She'd pause not sure where to go. She really wanted to...just avoid the issue but it didn't seem like that would help at all. She wasn't sure what the power dynamic was right now...if she should start or let him or if he would take that as her trying to control or manipulate him. Based on his last look...he seemed to think he was in the right which...seemed ridiculous based on the things he'd said and since he'd been the one who had started the fight and kept it going. She'd pause and close her eyes for a moment biting her lip in the nervous gesture she had before taking the immense effort to shelve her pride. She'd open her eyes to look into his. "I'm sorry about...the things I said the other night and storming off. I was really hurt and angry and I didn't want to do or say anything else rash." The apology was sincere and it took all of her will to get the words out.
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 17:35, July 31, 2019 (UTC)
He let out a long breath. "I know that comparing you to my parents wasn't kind," he said. "And it was wrong. But it felt like you were trying to get me to agree to find my brother when I'd made it clear that I thought that was risky, by your repetition of the 'I didn't want you to forget' mantra." He frowned. "I understand needing perhaps a night away. But after several... what was I supposed to think?"
She'd pause. "That I'm a pretty...emotion driven person but that I wouldn't throw away everything over...one little argument? I wasn't going to just...leave you." She'd pause to think. "...or is that the kind of person you think I am?"
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 17:47, July 31, 2019 (UTC)
"You talk all the time about being a team and working through things together. And like I said, I could've understood one day. But it's been what? Three? Almost four? Is that how it's going to be when we're engaged or married? What would kids think if their parents argue and their mother up and leaves for three days as a result?"
She'd frown, angry at the insinuation. "I wouldn't do that if we had kids Eric. I don't just drop my responsibilities especially if someone is depending on me." She'd have a few other choice remarks but pull them back. Getting into another fight wouldn't help and neither would her mean words even if they were true. She'd switch gears. "Fine Eric...what else did I do wrong?"
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 17:54, July 31, 2019 (UTC)
He frowned. "There is no... else?" He said confused. "You left and didn't tell me where you were going and were gone far longer than I expected with no word." He frowned. "And I guess I want to know if that's what I can expect every time we argue, or if this was a one-time thing."
She'd pause. "You already said that the initial fight was my fault too for pushing you about your brother so that's on me. You mentioned it bothered you I came back without any notice. Come on...what else is bothering you that I screwed up? I know I can be frustrating so what else in our relationship needs to get fixed? I want to get it all out in the open now."
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 18:02, July 31, 2019 (UTC)
Now he was completely bewildered. "Melinda... what is going on?"
She'd pause to take a deep breath. "You seem like you're just looking for an excuse to...walk out. Here's what I've heard you say: You think I'm a flight risk and that I would just up and abandon you or our kids. I'm all talk about us being a couple. I'm irresponsible. I don't communicate. I'm weak. I don't care about you. I don't care about our relationship enough to try to work things out after a fight. That you don't want me to be involved in the stuff with your family." She'd pause. "I love you Eric and despite my flaws I'm not willing to throw in the towel that easily so...yes. I screw up and make mistakes. It's all my fault. Help me...nail down all of the ways I screw things up and I will try as hard as I can to work on them and fix things because I would rather do that than lose you." There was a fierceness in her eyes...not anger but determination.
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 18:24, July 31, 2019 (UTC)
He let out a long breath and sat down on the couch. "Melinda." He took another long pause, trying to sort out his thoughts. "I... hope that I didn't come off like I wasn't trying to take responsibility. I know that I escalated things unnecessarily by comparing you to my parents." He frowned. "All... all I wanted was to know that this isn't... something I can expect in the future. I'm not... looking for ways to... dump you. I love you, too. I want to spend the rest of my life with you."
She'd pause then come and sit by him gently taking one of his hands in hers. She had a lot she wanted to say...his words had cut her pretty deep through the course of this. Blaming him or making him feel bad wouldn't help though she wanted to. "I will try to be more thoughtful of your feelings. The past couple days have been busy and hectic and I didn't want to come back in a sour mood and make things worse. We're both adults and I thought we were secure in our relationship and with one another and I thought the extra time would only help settle things...not make them worse. Clearly I was wrong. If something like this happens again I promise I'll at least let you know where I'm going."
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 18:44, July 31, 2019 (UTC)
He squeezed her hand. It wasn't quite what he wanted, but he could deal with that compromise. "Okay, thank you."
"I love you too." She'd return the small smile...but inside now that the...fighting was over she'd be nursing her wounds and her pride. It would take some time before she felt those words again even though she fully meant them.