She'd nod. "Yeah I had to brew up another batch since we were out and I used some extra ingredients to strengthen the normal version since we'll be messing with your head...hopefully it'll be more effective."
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 15:18, March 26, 2019 (UTC)
"Maybe but since that memory would have me it would probably be locked somewhere with all the other memories of me." She'd pause. "Do you think that reaction was some sort of defense or...just your mind reacting to something it wasn't sure was real or not?"
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 15:42, March 26, 2019 (UTC)~
"It didn't feel like a defense," he said shaking his head. "A defense would feel like it was coming... from some outside force, like with the butler man at the entrance that we defeated. This felt like it was coming from... me. My own... lack of specifics on the memory."
"If I'm in there and I...try to change or influence things too much your mind could identify me as an intruder. I guess I assumed when you said it wasn't a defense I thought you meant it wasn't a defense you or your parents created not that...it also wasn't your mind defending itself." She'd pause. "So you think it was because you were trying to remember something that wasn't there to remember?"
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 15:56, March 26, 2019 (UTC)~
"Something like that... It felt like I was trying too hard to remember something that I just... wasn't going to. Like the memory was right there... but that ultimately I never would."
She'd nod. "Which makes sense if the memory was locked away or..." She'd pause and frown. "You don't think they could have somehow just...removed them do you? Made it so we can't recover them with a memory charm or something?"
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 16:00, March 26, 2019 (UTC)
He shook his head. "I still think the fact that you're in there... has something to do with it. They wouldn't have done anything causally. It was all very deliberate."
She'd shrug. "I'm not saying your wrong just that we don't have all the pieces yet. Maybe they just couldn't get rid of me completely so they had to work with what was there." She'd pause. "How sure are you about it? I mean on a scale from really don't know to completely certain?"
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 16:06, March 26, 2019 (UTC)
She'd nod. She'd sort of hoped he meant something else. He hadn't shown any signs that he was attracted to her at all since he'd been rescued. She hadn't expected it when he was still so weak and recovering but...she'd shake her head slightly. "Yeah, it was rather odd looking at myself that way too. It might be a good idea."
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 16:18, March 26, 2019 (UTC)~
"I don't know if it's weird for her," he admitted. "But until I know what sort of emotions, or even memories, that she's attached to... it's hard to know what function she serves. I'd hate to be getting to know her and for her to just... attack you, in the process."
She'd nod. "Right but...that doesn't mean we don't have any type of relationship now. Since you were rescued it's been mostly a caretaker type relationship while you were healing, hence the nurse outfit in your mind. Even since you've gotten better it's still been mostly that since I've been doing the cooking, cleaning, laundry and everything else." She didn't seem upset by this just thoughtful. "So we have a current relationship and sometimes it's just hard to figure that out or how that might affect things later you know? I mean can you imagine how the would seem to someone on the outside? I'm living with my Ex-fiancée who can no longer remember me and mostly trying to help him regain his memories and physical strength."
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 16:49, March 26, 2019 (UTC)
"If I've seemed ungrateful for any of it, I apologize," he said. He moved a little closer to her. "You've been... the kindest person to me. And the only way I can think to repay the kindness is to... find myself again so that I can be the person you so desperately want me to be."
She'd shake her head slightly. "I wasn't looking for an apology or anything...just explaining why I wasn't sure how to respond to you saying I didn't always have to take care of you." She'd pause a moment. "...and I guess I should ask if you want to be the person you were. I mean you just outlined it well...the person I desperately want you to be but if that's not who or what you want..." She'd shrug.
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 17:00, March 26, 2019 (UTC)~
"I have no one else to be," he said. "I don't want to be a... broken, useless version of myself... the way I am now. It gives me something to fight for. Almost a way to... fight back against them, and something they stole from me," he said, his voice steeling some.
"I...never really looked for anyone else and I can be pretty scarce at times which most guys don't want to deal with." She'd pause feeling awkward. "If it'll help I can...make myself hideous or something."
Eric SelwynRavenclaw Alumnus -Jack of all trades... Master of none – 17:27, March 26, 2019 (UTC)
He laughed out loud at that. "Why on earth would I want you to be hideous?"