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Ferlesa

Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 21:28, April 2, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She had finished her work early today. The guilt was getting very strong from holding it in so long. So she had to let it out- at least, some of it. She came up to the bedroom and sat down on the floor by Ferlen's side of the bed, took a deep breath, and opened the door of her emotions. She didn't fight the guilt that surged through her, or the sudden tears that ran down her cheeks. It was painful, though, as the self-loathing quickly accompanied it. Her body stiffened and she dug her fingers into the bedspread, gritting her teeth as she tried not to fight it. Eventually the hatred began to fade, and she slowly let go of the bedspread and buried her face in her hands, her body shaking. There was more guilt than what she had allowed to come out, but she wasn't sure she could handle any more. She shook as she glanced at the clock; her eyes widened as she realized how long she had been up there. She took deep breaths, still crying softly, resting her head against her knees as she tried to calm down naturally.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 12:48, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
His voice would echo up from the stairs. "Teresa? ...are you up there?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 12:51, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She took a couple deep breaths so her voice wouldn't shake while she answered. "Yes!" She bit her lip and tried to fight back the emotion, closing her eyes.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 12:54, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would walk up into the room, leaning against the door. "...is everything ok?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 12:56, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She kept her eyes closed. "Trying to feel emotion n-naturally... is difficult."
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 12:59, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would frown, remaining silent.


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:04, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She rubbed her temple. "Jaki rodzaj potwora się stałem?" she murmured. She looked up at him. Guilt and sadness were etched across her face.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 13:05, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would look at her questioning. "...something that doesn't translate, or unintentional Polish?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:09, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She bit her lip. "Ferlen...." The Polish had been unintentional, but upon reflection, that wasn't a question she should ask. "Y-you deserve...." She couldn't finish that thought either. More guilt was pressing, and she gritted her teeth and fought back.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 13:11, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would move towards her, looking worried. "I deserve...what sweetheart?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:13, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She began shaking again as she fought back, her breathing ragged from holding back more tears.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 13:14, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would walk into the room, and gently fold his around around her, holding her close. "You're more than I could ever deserve."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:20, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She buried her head in his shoulder so he couldn't see her face. "Y-you're wrong. I'm j-just getting Darker and Darker in my thoughts and actions. Y-you...." The guilt overtook her and she dug her hands into the floor, all the while fighting back the only way she knew how, beating back the emotions forcefully.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 13:22, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would hold her, gripping her close to him. "Teresa...just let it out. If you continue to keep all this bottled up you'll explode."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:25, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
"I c-c-can't. It's too strong... I can't...." She kept digging her hands into the ground, her breathing turning into small gasps as she fought for control.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 13:28, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
His voice would be calm and steady. "...you CAN. Nothing is stronger than your will Teresa."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:34, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
Well... there were very few things stronger than her will, at least. And she didn't want to feel the guilt. Logically, she knew it didn't make any sense. She just wanted it gone. But if she was going to let it all out... this was probably the safest way to do it, with Ferlen holding her tight. She painfully pulled back her defenses, sobbing into his shoulder.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 13:35, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would hold her, rubbing her back gently. "It's ok Teresa....everything will be ok. We still have each other right?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:39, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She nodded against him, unable to speak as she cried, the guilt wrapping itself around her. She just wanted it gone... and Ferlen didn't want her to fight back... she gritted her teeth and held him tight, giving her hands something to do.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 13:41, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He kept speaking in his soft calm tone. "...and soon we'll have a little baby too...and our family will be perfect."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:48, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She shook her head, relaying the words of her nightmare- and, she strongly suspected, the words of her Boggart. "Ferlen... I-I'm a liar... I'm t-trapped in the darkness. I d-d-don't deserve your love, and I d-don't know how to protect you, or her. H-h-how can I ever be a good m-mother?"
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 13:50, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would continue to hold her, his voice low. "We'll start by getting rid of everything in the basement. ...and the rest will come one step at a time."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 13:57, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She didn't want to stop her research. But she also needed to keep Ferlen and their child safe. A new battle began in her mind as she debated that, and she suddenly got a splitting headache as the emotions crawled into the battle like an infestation of bugs. The more the emotions pressed, the worse it got. With a grunt she pushed on her emotions full-force, steadily beating the guilt back through the door of her emotions.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 14:00, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
"I know you don't want to Teresa...but don't focus on what you'll be losing...think of what you'll gain back. Your self-respect, your light, the ability to be the best mother you can, without all this worry and guilt...and without burdening our child with it. Is all that worth it?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 14:06, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
A part of her gravitated towards his words, taking hold of a small piece of hope, causing the guilt to take a few steps forward- then she focused again and imagined slashing at the guilt as it stumbled toward the door... through it... and as she slammed it, the tears suddenly stopped, and she was mentally exhausted, her vision swimming in front of her. She had used too much energy.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 14:08, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would continue to hold her, rubbing her back...not knowing what else to say.


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 14:13, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
Her gaze held nothing except exhaustion as she lifted her head to look up at him, his face swaying in front of her. "Can you believe that I still love you?"
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 14:14, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod. "The real question is can you believe I still love you?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 14:17, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She began to nod- then stopped. That made the dizziness worse. "Yes, I can. I don't always understand it... but I can believe it."
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 14:21, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod, kissing her forehead. "Good."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 14:35, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She continued holding him, resting her head against his chest as she waited for the dizziness to subside, wiping her tear-stained cheeks.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 14:36, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would hold her as long as she needed.


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 14:41, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She wanted to sleep... but she needed to eat. Eventually she pulled away, flinching a little as the baby gave a sharp kick.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 14:42, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He woudl stand, helping her to her feet. "Feel better?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 14:44, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She nodded, holding his hands in hers. "Thank you," she murmured.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 14:50, April 3, 2015 (UTC)
He would smile. "Of course."


Ferlesa Baby

Echo2
Echo - Cat of Teresa and Ferlen Black
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 15:28, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
She raced out of the room with a happy mew of greeting, rubbing herself against Teresa's leg and purring.
Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 15:28, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She grinned. "Echo!" She picked her up happily and headed into the bedroom.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 15:39, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would have finished unpacking and sorting, and would be putting the suitcase back in the closet. He would give Teresa a curious look. "Where's Rose?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 15:40, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She smiled. "In her crib, fast asleep."
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 15:43, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod. "Oh...I guess I'm just surprised to see her out of your sight. I expected you two to be inseperable for a while."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 15:46, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She smiled, setting Echo down. "I'll check on her shortly- and that baby monitor will be useful," she added, tapping the one on her nightstand.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 15:49, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod. "I wonder if they'll work in a magical house."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 15:50, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
"I've enchanted them just in case," she replied. "The enchantments will have to be updated every week or so- but they should work."
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 15:53, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod. "So...home again." He would smile at her. "Glad not to be pregnant anymore?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 15:56, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She smiled. "I am. I'm a lot more tired than usual- but at least I can move around pretty normally again."
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 16:02, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod. "Did you want to get a nap while Rose is?"


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 16:04, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She shook her head. "Not now," she replied. She sat down on the bed, looking around- understanding just how good it felt to be home after over a week of being in the hospital.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 16:07, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would watch her curiously.
Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 16:52, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
"I'm just so glad to be home," she said softly. "And it's all the better because our family has grown."
Echo2
Echo - Cat of Teresa and Ferlen Black
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 16:52, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
She leapt onto the bed, resting her chin on Teresa's leg with a quiet purr.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 17:19, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod. "...and having the next couple weeks off will be nice for all of us."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 17:28, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She smiled. "Though taking care of little Rose will be a full time job."
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 17:35, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod. "Yes it will...but one that we'll do together. I know a lot of people use daycare or nannies, and while I understand the need for a babysitter, it's important to me for us to be the ones who raise her and are there for her."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 17:36, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She smiled. "I agree," she said softly.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 18:33, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would blush a bit...he hadn't mean to sound accusing. "Of course not." He would smile at her, laying on the bed beside her. "...but it'll still be nice to get a break from everything and just focus on our family for a bit.


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 19:33, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She nodded, lying down beside him- thinking about how peaceful these next couple weeks could be.
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 19:37, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would smile at her. "So...obvioulsy you'll need to do the feedings, but I can help with the changings in the middle of the night."


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 19:40, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She nodded. She hadn't used the Dreamless Sleep potion since the baby was born, since she'd have to be awake at any time to feed her, and so far she really hadn't slept long enough to dream. She smiled as she pushed away her thoughts. Peace. "Sounds good."
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 19:42, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He would nod. "...and you get to relax some too....can you remember what that's like?" He would grin.


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 19:43, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She chuckled. "I relaxed enough in the hospital before Rose was born."
Ferlin
Ferlen - Alistair Fitzgerald's Senior Undersecretary
Send Me an Owl! - 19:45, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
He owuld raise one eyebrow. "...but not with foot rubs." With a smile he would slide over, grabbing one of her feet.


Teresa Azkaban
Teresa Black - Prisoner - Home
Send Me an Owl! - Echostar 19:49, April 15, 2015 (UTC)
~“Family is not an important thing. It's everything.”
She laughed. "I love you."
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